I had this friend.

I used to be best friends with this girl named Kayla. Well, there was actually five of us. We had our own little group; our own little world. Throughout our years of friendship, there was a lot of fights, a lot of drama, a lot of lying. Eventually ties were cut between her and I. And I guess, cut between her and all of us. We all stopped being her friend at basically the same time. I tried to be nice and stay civil because I didn't want any hurt at the end. But I think I did anyway. And I think a big regret of mine is cutting ties the way I did. Even though there were no words exchanged between us, even though it didnt end in a fight, it didn't end properly either. We just stopped talking, and all of a sudden there was a hate between us. Even though I didn't hate her, and I never will. And then a few months ago, I got this message from her mom telling me to back off and delete pictures with bad comments on facebook. I hadn't even said anything, nor had I stopped being friends with her for the reason her mom said I had.

I've done a lot of changing in the past year since Highschool ended. And lately I have been thinking about Kayla more and more. I know that she has not only blocked me, but the other three girls from Facebook so that we can't look her up or see her at all. That makes me sad. It hurts me, because I know I must have hurt her a lot in order for her to do that. I wish that I could have the chance to apologize for all of things that happened between us. I definitely don't think it was just my fault, because it wasn't. But if I had the chance to put things right and talk to her, I would. I still remember her laugh, and how silly she was. More than anything, I remember that she needed a friend. She always was struggling within herself. I hope that now she has been released from that. I really hope the best for her. And maybe God will give me the opportunity to connect with her again some day.