Everything In Between

It's beginning to get easier. Just, everything. In general. I can't believe how much easier it is when I just ask to be graced with strength.

Today, I talked to mom about Curch. We talked a little about how forceful grandma and grandpa are, and how that's effected all of us as a family. And I told my mom that I am pretty sure that if I hadn't of had that forcefulness, I probably would have started going to to Church earlier on in life. But my grandparents just turned me off of it. Like they have my brother and father. I told mom how much better Rocky View is. I told her that I want to get involved, eventually I want to become a member of the Church. She told me that was my choice. And I could hear it in her voice that she was only partially okay with it. So I just told her that I thought she should know, because its an important part of my life now. And I told her that I want dad, and Alex to go. Because I know better than to ask her to go. She said very bluntly that she is not into "organized religion." But today helped me open up a little. It's the first step, so I'm glad.

Kj and I spent some time together finally. It's been nice to be able to see him more often than I expected, but it's still not quite the same because it's never time alone. I finally was able to tell him what I had been needing so desperately to talk to him about. It was hard. But I asked God to help me with my words. And he did. So I am really glad. And I hope that things can be different now. I really do, because it was hurting me so much. I love you. I hope that everything I said made sense. And then we just chilled, and it was really nice. Church this morning was good, I really related to the message this morning, and it just felt like a breath of fresh air.

I can't believe this friggen weather. LIKE, SERIOUSLY? It looks like we live in Alaska. I LOVED NEW MOON. So good. I am getting really excited for my birthday. And for Christmas. I love being filled with this joy. I hope the reno's are done soon. Mom is gonna lose it soon. Love it. I love my family.