On Friday I worked, and then Kaleigh and Tanya slept over. We hardly even did anything. We watched homevideo's of junior high, and of my birthdays. We picked out changes in ourselves. It was crazy to see how much has changed both physically and socially for us. But I am so glad for the memories that I can look back on, now.
On Saturday I got up, and I was feeling sick to my stomach from nerves 'cause of this thing Kj had invited me to. I always get that same feeling... I just feel so uneasy when I'm anxious, even if there is nothing to be worried about. I really need to work on that. Some sort of calming ritual, lol. Good luck with that, Amy. Anyway... Tanya dropped me off at his leaders' house, and my heart was seriously pounding so hard. It was nervewracking, knowing I was about to meet this group of teenagers that Kj is becoming so close with. But they all were wonderful people. I feel so happy for Kj because I don't think he could have better people to accompany him on this trip. They are all such a strong support system for eachother, and each of them were totally different. It was so neat to see.
Kj came over afterwards, and we just kinda hung out. That's probably the first time we have spent any real time together since he started bootcamp. I felt really happy to be able to finally talk one on one, and just be together. After going days and days without seeing him, especially on a busy week like the last one where there wasn't a huge amount of communication either, I get really restless for him. But this is a really good test to see how I am going to be able to handle it once he leaves. So far, I think I'm doin' pretty good, save for the exception days where I'm off my game and get emotional. I'm trying not to complicate things. And I'm trying to keep my head clear. I really am. I know my heart. Just trying to take it step by step. I love him.
They talked about that in church this morning. But about taking it step by step in faith. It's about actions speaking louder than words. You can call yourself a christian, and say that you are full in faith, but are you living out those words? That was really interesting to me. Because that's exactly what I did for so long. I said one thing, but never acted accordingly. I pretended. That is changing. And I am really glad. I'm already excited for next week, and this time I'll actually bring my bible so I can follow along. I'm glad that Steph went with me. It was nice to have someone else there while I am still getting used to the church. But I think I might have finally found some place that I'm comfortable in. It actually gets me excited to get up on sunday mornings, and praise God for everything he's done, and will do. It's so good.
We are finally putting the laminate on the floor. My parents worked ALL day. Once I got home from church, I helped clean the basement because my aunt is staying overnight down there. It will be nice to see her. Anyway, it's about 3/4 of the way done in only the living room so far. We have a loooooooooooooooooong way to go. It will look so nice after it's finished though. My mom and dad have worked so hard for this. I hope that it gets easier to get everything done, now that they have the hang of it. Im going to try and help as much as I can.
I am going to be very busy this week... I have 41 or possibly even more hours. I work monday through saturday, with INSANE like ten hour days. Our biggest event of the year can just go home right this second. I am going to be the textbook definition of a zombie by saturday night. I'm wishing myself luck for this one. Oohfta. Sorry if I am a little incommunicado, espeically for the later half of the week.
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