Here Goes Nothing...

Another day, another new realization.

Today marks the beginning of Kj's training for Africa. I can't believe it's here already. But I can say that I feel much more prepared to be there to support him now then I did before. I could hardly support myself on this subject. I am so proud of him for getting this far already. I remember when this trip was nine months away, and thinking that it felt so long. I remember feeling scared. And now here we are, with less than three months until departing day. And the training is the first big step. I am so excited for him to meet and start bonding with the 10 other people he is going on this trip with. Oh gosh. Today is just such a big day for him. I think about how far I've come mentally and emotionally in a week, and it seems weird how I felt before. It seems I've come to terms with so much. And although in the future it could be bad or good, it's okay with me now. But, I guess I am just glad that I am able to take days to make these changes, instead of taking months like I would have if I was the old me. I am so thankful for the strength god is providing me. I don't think I would, or could be as strong otherwise. And not only him, but the absolutely unfailing support system of my friends. Especially from the select few, and they know who they are. I am thankful for them, too. Bring it on.

Bring it all on. I am so ready.

PS. I know how hard it is. Believe me, if anyone does, it's me. I promise that it will be okay, whatever happens. Just don't forget that I am here. A ten minute walk, or a phone call, or a text away. I love you.