I feel like I've been writing this blog for other people. But that's not what this is supposed to be about. It's supposed to be for me, so that I can have these memories. I need to stop writing it wondering who will and won't read it. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't. These are my personal thoughts, and I shouldn't be ashamed of them no matter what they are...
I am having so much trouble sleeping right now. Still dreaming every night! I can't remember my dream right now, and I wanted to share it. I should just start writing them on here... Too much effort. But getting to sleep, and staying asleep is a pain in my ass. I don't know what it is. I just literally cannot turn my brain off. It is not because of a certain thought; it is just in general. It's kind of like having ADD before one goes to sleep. I just jump from one thought to the next so fast. One triggers another, and so on. It is seriously so frustrating. Must find a technique to better my sleeping habits. I need the sleep.
I can't believe I worked 1-close the last two days. Not that it's such a mind grieving task. I'm just not used to it. My boss asked me if I am looking for more hours, and I said yes. So, I suppose that means I'mma be getting more and more of those nasty shifts. I need to remember to take of f the concert night, and Kayla's birthday. And truthfully, the shifts really aren't that horrible. I don't mind them. As long as I'm working with the right people. I can only take Colleen in small doses. She is just.. too "in the face" for my liking. The only thing I will give her credit for is that she is a damn good boss. She knows how to run our store, and she is the ONLY manager that has been able to do it properly. It is not an easy job, either. So, props to her for that. I LOVE the upbeat atmosphere. It's my favorite part about my job. Colleen says I am the most optimistic and happy person she knows. And I want to be like, "How is that possible?" I do like being happy. It makes life 100% more enjoyable.
Next on my "I can't believe" list, Halloween is in two days. WTF. When did this happen? How is Halloween in two days and I still don't have a costume? What do I want to be? However! Jenny and I are going shopping today, and hoooopefully *fingers crossed* I will find something that doesn't cost a million dollars. Because I think everyone around me, including myself, might shoot me if I wear my rag doll costume for a third year in a row. Haha. It's a good costume. I don't know what they all are complaining about. I don't feel very excited for Halloween. Maybe there just hasn't been enough hype. I don't know. I'm sure it will be a blast. I could care less how many people show up to the party. I get to spend it with my best friends, and Kj (Minus the Jenny best friend, in which I will miss terribly. Little nasty). And I am pretty excited to see Kj. It will be two weeks on saturday! I think that's actually the longest we have gone without seeing eachother, well, ever. Unless you want to include the month we didnt see eachother last summer when we were "seeing eachother". That probs doesn't count. So yeah. It's weird. But I'm not suffering, so that's a bonus! I think that being able to text fairly regularly is a big help on that basis. God continues to give me strength in that area, and in any area that requires strength. He is blessing me with SO much of it that sometimes I don't even know how to handle myself. It feels like a burden has been lifted right off my chest, and I am not used to that. He is giving me the chance to live my life without fear and regret. Right now, I couldn't ask for more. It's wonderful. It seems now that I was a wimp before. Well, not a wimp. Just.. less strong? Lol whatever. I WENT OFF TOPIC. The point is... Halloween. It'll be interesting. I'm kinda more excited just to decorate with Tanya, Breanna and Kaleigh. Let's get a bottle of wine and do it up! Haha. Fsshh.
I am so proud of Jenny for making it two whole years with Cody, today! It actually doesn't feel that long to me, unless I really stop to think about the memories of when they first were dating. Then it seems more like two years. But on the whole, it doesn't. I knew they'd end together until there was some sort of apocolypse. I've been right so far. Wish I could have a two year anniversary. The longest I've made it is eight months, LOL. I fail at life. Cares. I will someday. Today is Jenny's day.
That is all. :)
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