Conviction and revelation

He said to me, "Ask me why you chose to make that decision?" So, I asked. He replied, "You were searching for the approval and love you have never given yourself, because you have never allowed yourself to open up to me long enough to show you that you are beautiful." Pins could be heard dropping in my silence. Memories began to flash at a hunrded times per second. And then I realize, this is the truth. This is what I have allowed to happen. And I cried, and cried, and cried. But then the reshaping of my heart began, and I was thankful.