So, last weekend was phenomenal. I had the best time with my best friends. I cannot believe that the four of us have been best friends for 6 years now! That's incredible! That means I've been living in Calgary for 6 years. Time really flys by. Lady Gaga was so, so so so so amazing. She did such a fantastic job. It was by far the best concert I've been to. I am so happy that I can look back on last weekend and know there was never a bad moment. I feel so appreciative towards the girls because we have made it so far, and through so many changes. That's some serious commitment right there! And we have done it even though there were fights, though there were periods where we barely talked or didn't talk at all, though we have our own lives to balance. But the thing that has always stayed is that we have perservered through it. I know there were times when all of us were just ready to give up. But we didn't. We've always worked it out. And I think we are coming into a season where everything is finally okay again. There is peace where there used to be tension. I am so grateful.
Last night was a really heavy night at Tehillah for me. I just have felt so spiritually dry lately. And it's so hard because I know what I am doing wrong, but I just can't seem to get out of the rut. I just want to be close to God again, like when it first all happened. I can't believe its been almost a year since I accepted God into my heart. At the end of October of last year. That's crazy. I've got some stuff I need to work out with him. Right now it seems like he has decided I need to be given the silent treatment which I am not liking so much. Frig. I need to set my priorities straight.
Summer has gone by so quickly. It feels like Kj came home yesterday, and summer was just starting. But tomorrow is September 1st! I just finally ordered my textbooks, which is a good thing because I start school in 9 days! Well, 7 if you count the two days of orientation. I am getting so excited for this. I know it is going to be hard to balance school, and work, and my personal life. But I do have faith that it is going to work out. And I know that atleast I still will be involved spiritually because I will be continuing to go to Church, and Tehillah, and I am becoming a permanent youth leader at Steph's church this year, too. It is a lot of commitment, but I want it.
It's weird growing up. Today I spent like eight years on the phone with my credit card company, cancelling stuff and finding out information about my actual bank account. And about halfway through I thought to myself, "this is stuff I've been watching my parents handle." and it's strange. I know that I've been dreading turning 20, but I think I am also excited. I think that I am finally starting to appreciate new responsibilites.
I know that these next few years are going to be pivotal. But, I think I am ready for it now.
Today I am doing nothing with my life, which is okay, because I need to recouperate anyway. I somehow was plagued with a cold. Kj insists it wasn't him because I had different symptoms in the beginning, but I think it was him. Because yes, I've been going around and kissing many others besides him. Except, not.
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